the struggle

you know you miss her so much when you feel like crying just by listening to her voice...the overflowing joy of hearing her voice is indescribable. But somehow there's something else... you also can feel the pain and the suffering from that sweet voice. you know that vulnerable heart is bleeding deep inside and you wonder how she managed to keep holding on......keep on believing that someday, everything will be alright....keep having the faith that someday, the bitterness will fade away. Suddenly it felt so hard to utter thoughts into words...because you stammered all the way, trying to contain all the sadness so that she won't hear